from sinner to saint

Dear bey,

It is now 2012. 36 months after you said goodbye to life on earth. And it's been so long since I last wrote that I no longer know if I can still do it. So expect few spelling and grammatical errors ,but then, the heart knows no rules when it comes to pouring out its emotions.

Did you know about the 2012 theory of the Mayans? John Cusack made a movie about it but you were already gone for 5 months when it was shown worldwide. The Mayans foretold that the world will end on December 21, 2012. I do not believe them. My world ended on June 24,2009 in that cold isolation room at the Neuro Intensive Care Unit of Rashid Hospital in Dubai.

Here are some of the events you would have taken interest in but missed since then. I miss seeing you read local Gulf news, Philippine news and CNN reports early in the morning and I miss hearing your opinions and other stuff that make my nose bleed because my brain could no longer take more information than what you were giving me.

2009

May 2009 - Kris Allen won A.I. But I guess I told you this when you were fully sedated on the ICU and when you woke up. We both wanted and bet Adam Lambert would win. We were wrong.

May 21 - Egyptian billionaire real-estate tycoon Hisham Talaat Mustafa sentenced to death for the murder of Lebanese pop singer Suzanne Tamim. (When you talked about Tamim's murder then, I was like "wtf! pati ba naman Lebanese artists kilala mo! But then again, she was killed in Dubai and you made it your business to be informed about everything that happens around you)

June 1 - Air France Airbus crashes into Atlantic off northeastern Brazil killing 228 people, no survivors. Search called off in August after 51 bodies found.( This I'm sure you would have taken deep interest in, considering your obsession with airplanes. I remember you printing pages and pages of stuff about airplanes. And when you tried to share it to me, I got nauseated because it was all too technical and I felt like you were either studing to be an aeronautic engineer or trying to discover how to prevent airplane crashes , or build a 'crash-proof' plane. You were that one person I know who's been travelling from country to country for 15yrs yet still had that feeling you were going to die everytime you boarded a plane. THAT ALONE MADE ME REALIZE YOU LOVED ME SO MUCH FOR YOU WEREWILLING TO TRAVEL ALL THE WAY FROM SAUDI ARABIA TO MANILA TO CAGAYAN DE ORO JUST TO PROPOSE AND MARRY ME!

June 24-25 - You died. Charlie's Angel Farraw Fawcet died. MIchael Jackson died the day after. I have to ask, did you meet them at St. Peter's gate? ( Just kidding, I do not believe in this, neither did you)

June 29 - Bernard Madoff, chief symbol of US financial greed, is sentenced to 150 years in prison for decades-long, 65- billion-dollar "Ponzi" rip off scheme. ( You understood about world market and stock exchange whew!)

July 31 - Cory Aquino died. You called her the worst president of the Philippines.

August 2009- Ondoy hits the Philippines, killing hundreds in Metro Manila, particularly Marikina. Tsunami in Samoa and earthquake in Indonesia kills thousands.

October 22- Microsoft launched WIndows 7, to replace the unpopular Windows Vista (which you hated! ) I wonder if you would have changed the OS of our laptop then to W7. Because even with XP then, I sometimes turn on your laptop to see that you changed it back to Windows2000 , which according to a Windows and frustrated/aborted Microsoft Certified Systems Engineer like you said was the best OS Microsoft made. And oh I'm sorry you never got your MCSE Certification because .....

October - Flu epidemic kills hundreds in Ukraine. Longest Olympic torch relay in history.

November - Dubai World, the state-owned real-estate and ports giant, asks for a six-month moratorium on its debt, shaking financial markets from Shanghai to New York. Maguindanao Massacre took place.

2010

January - Burj Khalifa officially opened. (If you were alive then, we would have been there when it happened, watching the fireworks). Haiti earthquake kills more than 200,000. Ethiopian Airline crash. (and again another one, which would have made you secretly obsessed about planes even more).

February - Chile earthquake kills more than 500. 8.8 magnitude, recorded as one of the largest in history.

April - Poland president dies in Airplane crash (Again!) Volcanic ash disrupt air traffic in Europe.

May - 2 separate airplane crashes, one in Libya, and one in India killing hundreds. KZ turned 4, you turned 42 and I turned 31

June - Noynoy Aquino elected president of the Philippines. And you would have said " Oh no, not another Aquino, so is Kris 1st lady now?"

July- Spain wins FIFA world cup. (Okay, I would have been the only one interested in this, but since you understood my love for football, you would also have been interested in this too). Thousands killed in Pakistan flood.

October - Tsunami and Repeated Volcanic eruptions hit Indonesia killing thousands.

2011

January

• January 9–15 – Southern Sudan holds a referendum on independence. The Sudanese electorate votes in favour of independence, paving the way for the creation of the new state in July
• January 11 – Flooding and mudslides in the Brazilian state of Rio de Janeiro kills 903.
• January 14 – Arab Spring: The Tunisian government falls after a month of increasingly violent protests; President Zine El Abidine Ben Ali flees to Saudi Arabia after 23 years in power.
• January 24 – 37 people are killed and more than 180 others wounded in a bombing atDomodedovo International Airport in Moscow, Russia.

( You have friends from Sudan and Tunisia and you understood their politics. You find brazilian women sexy and Russian women beautiful hehehehe)

February - Egyptian president Mubarak resigns. You knew much about Egypt's history, government , culture. Former FP CHieff of Staff Angelo Reyes commits suicide a week after being accused of corruption under the term of your 'idol' president GMA. (Yes you liked the fact that she was an economist, daughter of former Pres Macapagal and one hell of a smart and strong lady. But I also believed that given all the corruption issues surrounding her, you would have been one of the first to condemn her)

March 11- Earthquake and Tsunami in Japan kills thousands. When they issued a tsunami warning in the Philippines, I cried, not for fear or anything, but I honestly felt alone. I wanted to scream then how much I needed you in my

life.

MArch - Libyan war, civil unrest in Bahrain and other arab countries.

April - prince william gets married. I could imagine you consoling me with these lines. " Mas pogi ako kay Prince William, maswerte ka saken kaya wag mo na iyakan yan hehehehe"

May- Osama Bin LAden killed my American troops. You knew a lot about him too, which made me wonder sometimes kung close ba kayo? At naging kabarkada ba kayo sa Saudi? hehehe Kz also turned 5, me 32, and you 43.

August- Gaddafhi overthrown. You knew a lot about Libya too, about their politics and trade. NASA announces that its Mars Reconnaissance Orbiter has captured photographic evidence of possible liquid water on Mars during warm seasons.Juno, the first solar-powered spacecraft on a mission to Jupiter, is launched from Cape Canaveral Air Force Station.

October - Unesco admitted Palestine as a member.

November - Mars Rover Curiosty launched from Kennedy Space Center. Your 'idol' GMA arrested while trying to "flee" the country

December- Sendong hits the city you called " Calamity free".

There are still more events that happened from 2009- 2011 which I know you would have taken serious interest with.

And I miss that intelligent guy who taught me a lot about world politics, science , showbiz. I miss the guy who taught me about google when I didnt know the answer to my query. You were a trivia/information freak. You absorbed and understood everything you read. And i loved you for that also. That made you so sexy to me. I miss answering crossword puzzles with you. I dont do them anymore. I ould still remember the look on your face when we came across a 4 letter puzzle about Israel's commercial airline and when I answered El Al, you were like "How come you know that and I don't ". And I answered " I read Erich Segal books and he's a jew".

No, you did not miss these events. The world has become a troubled place to live in. Even Mother Nature is driving me crazy with all these climate changes. Im a way I'm glad you've been spared from all these heartaches.

And yes, maybe the world is coming to an end soon. Whatever. All I know is my world ended with you.